My story starts when I was only 16 years old and a gentleman caught my attention. My world revolved around him. Soon after meeting him, I discovered his demons. He was the sweetest, gentlest soul while I carried our first child at the age of 17. Things were going really well for a while.
When our son was around 6 months old, the abuse and devastation began, and at first it was just simple yelling. That moved into more yelling and a small shove here or there. Eventually it moved into throwing things at me and more physical attacks. He was spiraling out of control... There was the day when I started my first job (I was 18) and when I came home from work, my son, and my two small nieces were at home unattended... while he lay passed out from intoxication upstairs. I ran up to our room and confronted him about the issue, and he attacked me. From that day, it only got worse. No matter how much I hoped and begged it never got better, He never got better.
Then came the night that changed my life forever. The night of my 19th birthday... My barely 1 year old son witnessed his father, my husband, the man I put all my love into... beat me nearly to death. That night, my sweet boy saved my life... Somehow he snapped his father out of the blind rage he was experiencing, which stopped him from the brutal attack, and gave me a chance, preventing anything worse from happening. I won't go into too many specifics, but as a result of that night I now have permanent damage to my right eye, which also brings the most severe visual headaches that could bring even the toughest person to tears.
But because of that night, I am a stronger person. I am a better person, and I honestly feel it has enhanced my view of everything in life. I was his weak and powerless victim for over a year, but now I've become the survivor he fears. He may have damaged me, but he never broke my spirit.
I feel my son and I have a very close and special connection because of that night and the kind of trauma we experienced. He is a fierce protector of both his baby sister and I. I am raising him to not only be a better man than his father was, but the best one he can be.